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Jason McConnell ([personal profile] no_voice) wrote2015-09-17 09:05 pm
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Cause he knows he's taking chances. [Test post for Peter]

Jason arrives to St. Cecilia's feeling both as though he's about to take flight and he's about to sink into empty air with only the cold, cruel autumn ground to break his fall. He breathes in the oppressive humidity of the late August day as though he might steal some of the summer sun to keep himself warm on the inside. His senior year, finally. Everything comes down to this. All of those 'encouraging' family talks and hollow laughter about how he'll make the family proud and burn brightly on at Notre Dame. All of those discussions about how he'll meet his future wife and provide his parents with grandchildren soon enough.

He shakes his head, taking a stuttering breath to calm himself. He's only just arrived. No need to let the pressure of everything build quite that high up just yet.

His parents offered to help him unpack; he waved them off with the smile he'd gotten so good at faking, gently hinting that perhaps their assistance would be better off with Nadia, who rolled her eyes, but offered him an actual smile all the same.

His family ought to have left by now. He hopes. Regardless, with one last exhale, he's on his way back to his room. He needs to see Peter more than anything. He's the only person Jason wants to see in this moment; he's the only one who will understand.

But of course, he's Jason McConnell, and making his way back to his own room is never that simple. He winds up chatting with Matt for a few minutes, before gaggles of girls try and worm his number out of him. He endures about ten minute of it before excusing himself, nearly running to his room where, hopefully, he'll find Peter.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-13 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
Now it's Jason that's coming undone, and Peter is awed by it. Some simple friction, a few rushed grabs, no less than a hundred kisses in the last fifteen minutes and suddenly Jason is translated. The locked, barricaded door serves as permission, the neutrality of the first night back before school is their excuse, and the hours of open time that separates them and reality is theirs to make of it what they will. These thrills tremor their way down Peter's spine and meet with the electric spark in the pit of his stomach. The charge snaps Peter's hips into Jason's touch twice, completely involuntarily. He whimpers softly.

"Jason." He marvels. Jason's name is at Peter's lips again, but he stifles it in favor of licking his way into Jason's mouth. That pit in his stomach is molten once again. Desire flares up in him and he tugs Jason's pants down, only opening them as much as he has to in order to accomplish his task. He's still only about half-present in his mind, and that little fraction dwindles every time Jason completes another mind-altering pass of his hand. He's not totally sure what his plan is, but he knows that it involves as few clothes as possible.

"I'm yours," Peter reminds him, but his response is breathless, his focus diffuse. Against the flat front of Jason's hip, Peter slides his palm fingers-down until his own hand is curled the root of Jason's cock. He manages to regulate his strokes, but only just. Jason's fingers slide over the most sensitive part of Peter and he screws his eyes shut against the intensity of it. A few breaths huff by before Peter's eyes meet Jason's again.

"Then bend me over the desk." He means this to be a request, but a combination of being too far out of his mind for manners and the knowledge that this wish will likely not be met with disdain prevents it from coming out that way. It was Jason's idea in the first place; they'd been talking about fucking on a car, but they can work with what they have.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-18 06:11 pm (UTC)(link)
A paralyzing hitch of a moan strangles Peter on its way past his lips. He's so out of his mind with desire and to hear it echoed in the way that Jason can barely even say Peter's name burns under his skin. His back arches into Jason's insistent touch and fans the flames beneath his own jerking tugs at Jason. In a change of pace, need has sharpened Peter's focus. What he actually needs is to make Jason completely forget everything that's happened between the last time their bodies intertwined and this one. He knows that no amount of lovemaking and hard twists of Peter's fingers in Jason's hair can make him forget forever, but if he can't even recall having a conversation with his father for however long this encounter lasts, Peter will rest easily knowing he's done what he can. He's offered compassion and reason and now, he wants friction to wash the remaining hurt away.

A shuddering, disarmed gasp sucks the air out of Peter and takes Jason's bottom lip with it. Peter can't help but trap that gorgeous pout between his teeth as Jason hoists him up with relative ease. Peter tightly wraps his arms around Jason's neck just the way he loves to do, arms straining to keep himself as close to Jason as possible. Once his ass meets the desk, he shucks his shirt and then Jason's. Not even two seconds pass before Peter is kissing Jason again like his life may end if he stops. All he can think about is the way it will feel when Jason traps him between his perfect body and the cheap plywood of the desk, but that's too far away and he needs more now. Without easing off any pressure of the vice-grip he has on Jason with his legs, he plunges his hand between them. Desperately, he takes both of them in hand at once and the pressure is so fucking delicious that his head tips back in the intensity of it.

"Jesus, fuck, Jason," Peter gasps, unable to keep from moving against into his own hand, against Jason's rigidity. He once again finds his arm uncurling from Jason's shoulders to better move against Jason. The move to the desk alone was enough to make him want to cry out, so he gnashes his teeth into his own bottom lip, this time, stifling the breathy little moans that he can't completely help.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-19 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
Peter's perceptive. It's what, Peter's dad said, was going to get him into college and on his way to a good job. Spending time perfecting a facade makes it pretty easy to spot one in someone else, and it's been a helpful tool for Peter. Likely it also has to do with the intense amount of empathy that Peter feels at any given moment. It's easy for Peter to put himself in someone else's shoes. Once he's experienced it, it's easier to identify it. Here, now, Peter can see that he's in control. This isn't a role Peter always likes to take -- he doesn't quite thrill in it the way Jason seems to -- it's all he wants right now. The tides have shifted again, and Peter is so happy to go with the flow.

A strong, insistent hand hooks around the back of Jason's neck and he, with forceful care, tugs Jason's mouth to his. "You're so gorgeous," he hisses before devouring his mouth in a kiss. Jason is nearly entirely past comprehension, Peter notes, and he himself finds his head spinning as he continues to twist and stroke between them. He's determined, playing his role with eager gusto. Rather than part Jason's mouth with his tongue like he wants, he nudges Jason's head up to mouth heatedly at his Adam's apple, down to his collar. He can't follow this train long before he has to be kissing Jason again.

"Tell me what you want, Jason," he's pressing with gentle insistence, a little out of his mind with how eager he feels to hear Jason's voice, to watch the way he comes further undone with every kiss and pass of his hand.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-20 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
Being in control is somewhat relative for Peter. The truth is that he cannot imagine that what he does to Jason is tantamount to what Jason does to him. Peter has it in his mind that Jason chooses to lose control, whereas Peter gets pushed there by the perfect specimen that has no business being in the arms of someone as unworthy as Peter Simmonds. Then, there's Jason, barely able to talk in the face of a compliment on his Grecian appearance. Peter imagines that if Jason had a nickle for every time someone makes a comment about his incredible he looks, Jason could match is father's fortune dollar-for-dollar. So why should it matter that a boy that worships the ground he walks on should think the same as anyone else? It can only mean that his opinion means more to Jason than the others'; that's a thrill all of its own.

When words find Jason again, they seem to be making up for lost time, tumbling out on sheaves of the most tantalizing, eager, uncontrolled sexiness that Peter loses his own composure for a second. He's thankful that Jason's face in in his neck, that he's not standing or he knows his knees would have buckled. A few seconds pass after Jason's muted request; the white-heat that it provokes rushes out of Peter's mouth in a low, awed moan. He wants to hear it again, a hundred times, more. As it is, he takes his arm from around Jason and flattens his hand against Jason's chest, pushing him back just a bit. Loathe as he is to break the contact, he untangles his legs from around Jason, uncurls his other hand, and gives Jason a firm (but not forceful) shove back onto the bed. In the transfer, he grabs the supplies from the drawer he'd seen Jason retrieve them from mere hours ago. Languidly, he sprawls himself out on top of Jason -- this hadn't been part of the plan, but he needs to kiss him again -- before passing parted lips down the line of his torso.

"Jesus, Jason, you're perfect," Peter breathes once his lips reach the jut of Jason's hip bone. A quick nip of teeth there and Peter's off again, taking his time to mouth over to the head of Jason's dick. There, he rolls lips and tongue just barely over the skin as he palms some of the lube into his hand. He intends to keep busy, to take over and ease the constant burden of Jason's endless responsibilities. Anything, really, just as long as it keeps Jason right on the verge of losing his mind for however long he can keep the game up.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-21 07:12 am (UTC)(link)
Each Jason's moans, curses, and twists fans the flames under Peter's desires both physical and the one that tells him what he needs -- what they both need, he's willing to bet -- is for Jason to completely lose control. Maybe it can work like a hard reset; if Jason can totally relinquish control for however long Peter can keep this up, perhaps some of the tension will ease. Besides, there is nothing that sustains him better on those days when Jason is on a particularly tiresome bout of straight-guy facade than remembering the last time Peter had reduced Jason to quivering jell-o. It's a satisfaction so deep that he wouldn't share it with anyone even if he could. Surely part of the thrill of Peter taking control is the infrequency with which it happens.

At the sound of Jason's head thumping against the wall, Peter's eyes flick up. He quickly sees that his boyfriend is not in any pain or peril, so he doesn't bother to stop the way his lips loosely close with minimal pressure over Jason's head. Now, he can watch Jason watch him, and that means taking his sweet time in engulfing Jason's gorgeous dick between Peter's already-swollen mouth. A slick finger begins to only just press at Jason's entrance. By the time he's gently pressed the first digit in, his mouth has only just closed completely around the tip of him. Green eyes press a heated gaze into blue; Peter is utterly enraptured with the way Jason tries to hone his focus on Peter while still unraveling slowly.

Jason's direct, detailed wish brings the flush up in Peter's cheeks, accompanied by a spark in his center so powerful that it feels like he's been kicked in the stomach. Despite the agonizingly little amount of progress he's made toward fully taking Jason in his mouth, he pulls back. There is a smirk that is atypical of Peter (borrowed from Jason's own catalog of looks, Peter is sure) that's stuck to his mouth when he does pull back.

"Anything you want," Peter emphasizes. As if to illustrate his point, he flicks his tongue against the head of Jason's cock one last time. Fuck, he loves the way Jason tastes, loves the way he can't help but bucks his hips into the contact, so he finally closes his mouth with slow, deliberate pressure to the root as his finger searches deeper within Jason.
Edited 2015-10-21 07:20 (UTC)
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-24 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
There are few things Peter loves more about Jason than that mouth of his. The look of it, of course, especially the way his lips are stuck into this permanent, beestung smirk or the way his bottom lip juts out further than the top one does. And oh God, does he love the way it feels, against his lips and anyplace else on Peter's body. Not even that can compete with the words and sounds that come from that incredible mouth. It thrills Peter that when Jason's composure dissolves he becomes a very animal, instinctual person. He's all groans and gasps and those blasphemous words that could shear away Peter's own composure alone. Although, Peter supposes the motivation behind Jason's heated words may be equal parts primal loss of control and the cocksure knowledge that he can undo Peter without touch.

Jason is trembling, full-on shaking, and it takes everything in Peter not to give up the ghost and just fuck him then. It would be a shame, he thinks, to waste all of the build-up he's already committed to in the name of satisfying the insistent way his own dick strains against his stomach. Taking control includes self-control, and Peter manages to find it within him to see this sequence of events out. Or until Jason's sinfully perfect mouth pushes Peter far enough away from his self-control.

As a second finger starts to work its way into Jason with slow, gentle pressure, Peter moans around Jason's cock when he feels his boyfriend rolling his hips between Peter's fingers and mouth. Twice, Peter tells himself that he should move his mouth elsewhere, maybe to mark up that flat skin just to the left of where he currently is, but the way Jason thrusts into his mouth, shudders against the flat of Peter's tongue, and fuck, the way he tastes, he just can't bring himself to do it. Instead, he slides his free hand up the inside of Jason's thigh, over his hip, and under to cup his ass, urging him to continue his movement while he worships him with his fingers and mouth.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-24 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
It's only just occurred to Peter that Jason's hand is insistently twisting, pressing in his hair and he loves it. He even backs off just a little bit against Jason's hand just to feel the way Jason will inevitably press him back down, all need and no harshness. There is such incredible care in the way Jason touches him, even when he's got very little grip on polite reality. It's that tenderness that allows Peter to love Jason and be secure in the knowledge that he is loved without having the luxury of hearing it.

As Peter twists his hand to press another finger into Jason, he realizes that his self-control reserves are running dry. Jason as he is, spread wide for Peter and totally undone, is too irresistible. There's not even much regret when Peter disengages mouth and hand from their concentrated efforts. As he lays himself out on top of Jason, he finds he's so light-headed that he nearly falls atop the other man. With a kiss by way of apology for the fumble, he moves Jason's leg out further with his knee. Now that he's kissing Jason again, he gets distracted and stays as he is for a few long, languid moments. Besides, the longer he stays as he is, the harder Jason will work to get Peter to give him what he wants.

"You okay?" Peter asks, and while sure, he genuinely wants to check up on Jason and make sure he's ready, there's a dash of feigned innocence. If his classmates could see him now, out of his Goddamn mind with desire, many would barely recognize him. Peter is selfish with this part of Jason, anyway. It's one of the few things that's his, and since it is, he rewards the behavior by kissing his way along Jason's jaw to nip at his earlobe. Maybe it's less meticulous than this, though, and perhaps Peter is just trying to busy himself to keep from giving in himself, but no one can prove that.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-25 09:34 pm (UTC)(link)
The way Jason rolls his hips up against Peter makes him hitch a little moan, surprised by it, himself. He can feel how hard Jason is against his own throbbing and it's chipping away at Peter's carefully-constructed act of composure. He finds himself rubbing against Jason, frantically kissing his neck, sucking across his throat (carefully; he knows better than to leave a mark). When his mouth reaches the other side of Jason's neck, he snatches up the condom and pushes himself to his knees. As he kneels between Jason's legs to roll the condom on, he can't help but watch the way Jason wriggles and thrashes about. It would be ridiculous if it weren't so intoxicating. Though it's a shame to displace him when he looks so tantalizing (and Peter has to afford himself a quick kiss to the inside of Jason's thigh or he'd never forgive himself), but once Peter's hands are free, he tugs suggestively at Jason's hips. He thinks for a second that he's wasting precious time when he extends his body over Jason's to kiss him again. Kissing Jason, more than any single other thing, is what Peter spent most of his summer daydreaming about. Now that he can, he needs to keep going. He's wrong about the time: it's barely evening and they have all the time in the world.

Then, he realizes he's stalling. He knows exactly what he wants, but even with Jason so totally abandoned at Peter's hands, Peter still struggles to get his mouth around the words to request what he wants. He realizes with abject horror that his powerplay may be totally ruined when Jason sees that he's blushing.

"Jason, I want..." Fuck, he's hesitated and that's obvious, but he presses on. "Will you get on your knees for me?" There is no possible way this bumbling can be sexy to Jason, Peter thinks, but he has hope that he hasn't completely ruined the moment in his awkward teenage lust. Just in case, he kisses him briefly before he can answer. That mouth has bested him again.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-26 12:52 am (UTC)(link)
As Jason shifts, Peter has to press his lips tightly together to keep from giving in to a deep cry of a moan. Jesus, the way he moves is magic. Peter watches each muscle group he uses ripple and settle under tightly stretched skin until Jason is bent over in front of him. The sound escapes then; it seems to pry through Peter's lips and strangles him until he releases it. By way of muffling it, Peter leans in to scrape his teeth over Jason's shoulder. His cock is already poised to fuck Jason, and the closer he gets, the smaller his vision becomes. Finally, when Peter feels he may have a grip on his vocal chords once again, he straightens to push gently, carefully, however trembling into Jason.

He's barely slid in halfway when his head tips back and he succumbs to a shuddering, basic moan. Things don't usually shake out this way, but God, that makes it so much more incredible when they do. Peter's taking his time. He curls one hand around Jason's hip and the other smooths along his back, caressing him, focusing on these tender slips of touch to ground him and keep his progress slow. All he wants it more of Jason, around him and next to him.

"Oh God," Peter breathes, trembling with the effort it takes to keep his hips still. That searching hand slides down Jason's side and Peter bends at the waist to kiss along his chiseled, smooth back. The kisses he slides across the skin are feverish, but it seems to be helping him keep his agonizing pace.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-27 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
Peter can feel Jason trembling along with him, and it inspires a bit of stability. With a hand that he still cannot quite steady, he slides his fingers first, then his palm down Jason's side and over his middle. With another few ghosts of his fingertips, he curls that arm around Jason, steadies him. From here, he can better kiss his neck, slide up to his jaw and settle his lips at Jason's ear once again. Teeth make the first contact, then tongue, and finally Peter is using his newfound leverage to press his hips forward and fully fill Jason. If the action alone hadn't been enough to knock the wind out of Peter (and it was), the proximity would have done the job anyway. Peter's mouth is still at Jason's ear, but he can't bite or kiss. In fact, it takes him several tries to make any sound at all and the first attempt is a swoon of a gasp. There, draped over Jason's back, inside him, Peter remains for a little longer than he intended.

Slowly, his brain seems to reboot. His free hand smooths over Jason's arm, caresses all the way down until Peter's locked his fingers into Jason's over the back of his hand. This almost causes them to tumble over, and Peter catches himself, steadies Jason. The integrity of this structure is questionable, and Peter simply cannot troubleshoot it in his current state. Instead, he straightens his back to sit up. He can't help but stop here for a second, with Jason bent over, and roll his hips to press fully back into Jason, then back.

It's not enough, somehow; he needs more of Jason. "Come here," he breathes, and it's still somehow a sweet sort of request. He helps Jason to get upright, pressing his chest flush against Jason's back. Here, he can crane his neck enough to kiss Jason as he rolls his hips. It works magnificently, and Peter's victory cry is actually an obscene groan into Jason's mouth.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-28 06:32 am (UTC)(link)
At Jason's hand in his hair, Peter huffs out another low moan. It gets drowned out by Jason's desperate panting, gasping, gorgeous whimpering and damn, he's not sure how long he's going to be able to keep this up. Jason's miles apart from his composure and it's decimating all of Peter's careful reserves. In what is surely the very last of Peter's self-control, he parts his lips from Jason's (as much as he doesn't want to) in favor of working his way back to his ear.

"Jason, God," Peter breathes, softer than a whisper against the folds of Jason's ear. He forgets his train of thought for a second, getting lost in the rhythm and sensation of moving into Jason's ass, the way that the offbeats are so clearly punctuated by Jason's indiscreet (and breathtaking) noises. When he hisses a soft, unobtrusive shhh into his lover's ear, he can't help but follow it with a little chuckle. "Fuck, I don't want you to stop but you have to -- God, fuck -- keep it down, gorgeous." Perhaps he doesn't want his boyfriend to feel scolded, or maybe he wants to make this new information as hard to deal with as possible because he takes Jason's cock in hand, taking care to stroke in time with his rolling thrusts. He's so dizzy with Jason's proximity and the electricity between them that he plants his forehead on Jason's shoulder for a few moments. Dazed and half-aware as he is, he still can't break the steady cadence of his hand or his hips. He can taste the perspiration on Jason's shoulder, feel it against his own parted lips as they let loose rushes of dazed and amazed huffs of breath. This is better than any substance Lucas hides under his mattress.
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[personal profile] paper_courage 2015-10-29 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Every curl of Jason's fingers in Peter's hair so enhances all of the other incredible, overwhelming sensations that Peter is overwhelmed. His eyes flutter closed; somewhere way in the back of his mind, he can feel his body aching from the effort that's being exerted. His pain receptors are dulled, though, and every throb gets processed as a pleasurable one. And God, Jason is so hopped up on their love that he can't even form a complete sentence. The delighted moan this elicits cannot be helped, and Peter presses his lips together tightly. He has to smash his pursed lips against Jason's shoulder to muffle the sound. The absence of Jason's hand on his gives Peter the impression that Jason may have had a similar idea.

It's a shame to let a mouth as inviting as Jason's be hidden, though. Peter lifts his head from its place on Jason's shoulder and begins to slide his mouth with occasional, sloppy kisses toward his mouth. He can't quite reach and he hasn't a hand to spare, so the next contained groan he lets out is tinged with effort and frustration. "Kiss me," he breathes, arm wound so tight around Jason's middle that he fears his fingertips may leave bruises. He's so close already and getting closer with every snap of his hips and corresponding jerk of his hand.

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